escapism as a place.

 i had a dream i was in a resort. like a brightly lit, very beachy, everyone wearing white type of place. i was with a group of women and it was for a massive event. maybe bachelorette party. something where one of the women was being celebrated. i didnt know the woman but cassie pinner was one of the women there and laura from carissa’s work at betsey johnson was there. it was from her dreadlock days, not her bald head days. i was having a really great time and felt like i was being very entertaining and warm and fun and we laughed a lot and got surprised by how good things felt, often. there was a sense of timelessness, like nothing was going to end, and even if it did, we werent going BACK to anything. there was also a safety of not having to undersell or undercompensate for not being attracted to any of these women. it was all a very clear and direct sense of platonic joy that was equally reciprocated. the mode was coated with a fantastic ease. 

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