i can DJ in another city where we haven't kissed.

 i remember starting specifically in the back room of belle hall and cleaning or finishing cold brew and talking about an incredible hulk scene that's so sad and that in some way he lost his child and the scream that the hulk let out was so desperate and loud it was one of the best of all time, like you could really feel the emotion. A coworker went up front through the backroom door and I tried to recreate the scream but my voice wouldn't come out. 


later that night myself and two coworkers leave together talking about going to another city for a dj set that bigger coworker was going to run. he had his trunk stacked with his gear and we were all excited to go. we drive separately to his house bc we’re all going together and were going to spend the night there in the new city. He keeps boasting about how he knows where it is. We get to his house to drop off the cars and end up going into their house and it's kind of awkward in the house. I think their spouse doesn't know that he's going and also didn't expect us so he had us stay in this front room while he talked to them but we eventually left. That part of the dream is very vague. 


i know we start driving (me and the other coworker are stuffed in the backseat bc there is a lot of dj gear) and we are pretty hyped up still but it becomes clear that dj coworker doesn't know the way there. he drives for a very short period of time and we end up at a dead end at a beach and a gazebo. Another coworker (at this point a male) is visibly awkward and stranger but dj coworker says dont worry i got this. we drive into a smaller nearby city (i guess we were driving to a bigger city) and began to drive around. The driver agrees to park and ask for directions. It's daytime now. There are so many people in this city we separate because we have to keep walking and there's nowhere to stop. Eventually an awkward coworker and I (male at this point) stop and have a conversation between a ton of people walking and we're like there's no way we'll find our friend. 


we separate again bc we have to keep walking and eventually this coworker has become another coworker (a female) and she is deeply upset at us being lost. we are staring at this big kind of mall sign (the YOU ARE HERE type) and she is very upset (like, in a stressed out way, about to lose her mind). I confirm her fears which are kind of mine, that the driver has no idea where he’s going and we’re lost. and i’m being very comforting like hey dont worry we can just go home if it doesn't work out. but i also show her that i have my phone and i have waze on there (like it’s a big secret app) and as i tell her that she kind of relaxed her body and holds my hand real tight and is feeling deeply relieved. she is really close to me and i’m like bent down showing her my phone and as i stand up we brush mouths kind of like a kiss by accident (perception wise) and were like ugh sorry sorry but she keeps holding my hand tightly.


we eventually find our coworker who has all of their dj stuff on the floor of a retail space as he is unpacking boxes and starting to open up a store (but people already know him here) and things are getting very strange. It's half retail space and also his home. i notice im in the home with the coworker and were ordering dinner from a restaurant, like people are asking and making a list what do you want what do you want. then im alone in the apartment and coworker has left with ANOTHER (female) coworker and in my mind im like oh no i know this is going to be really bad (a feeling of almost dread and nervousness). so they get back and i see them out the window and i can tell coworker 1 is telling coworker 2 the story but an untrue version of it and i just want to shut down. and coworker 2 is in the room with me and asks what im getting to eat from the restaurant and im like oh nothing nothing im good actually. I was planning to leave in my mind like planning a way to leave them all and never see them again.


i woke up at this point (3:30am) feeling completely awkward and nervous. like it had actually happened. couldn't go back to sleep (about an hour sho) bc of how nervous and awkward it made me feel. 

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